I’m back!¬†

My apologies to anyone who has started to follow me. Technology was against me for a little bit, I stepped on my cell phone and it’s tough to blog with a shattered screen. Lol. I hope everyone is doing well! I definitely am! I have been spending time with myself and my closet loved ones. Some much needed bonding time. I’m actually thankful for my time away from my phone. I’m going to try to post at least once a day this week sharing my recent happiness and progress towards hope and peace. Xoxo


Escape From Reality

I’ve gotta say, I’ve been day dreaming a lot recently about going to my family’s cabin in the Poconos. True natural beauty is every way you look. Breathtaking sun rises over the lake. It’s so quiet and peaceful. The only other people you run into are people who are there to relax and enjoy. No shootouts. No children crying and screaming all hours of the night because their parents are partying on the front porch. No ghetto attitudes. I love late night cat fishing. Late night bonfires making smores. And you know, it keeps me humble. We only have an outhouse. Barely any cell phone service. Making life time memories with the people who matter to you the most.  To me, that’s the ultimate paradise. My escape from reality. 

Structure…. Yeah, about that…. haha

So I never maintained any structure during my younger wild years. I shuddered at the mere thought of routine and schedule. Well, now as I’m trying to adult on my own, I’ve come to the crappy realization that learning structure in your youth really is the foundation to adulting well. Man…. remembering important things and being there on time, and making sure your house chores are done while working a job to pay bills. To any young readers, listen to the older ones blabbing about responsibility and routine. Build a structure for life. If you don’t, you can Join me in preschool for adulting. You’ll have to start all over. But oh well, life’s good either way. Xo

All you need is love.

As far fetched and clich√© as that sounds, for me, that’s what keeps me going in life. The best feeling in the world is to love and be loved. Love keeps me positive. Inspires my dreams and goals. Reassures me that the struggle is worth it. Happiness for me is the key to success. Love without limits and expectations. 

The importance of companionship.

I’m learning how important it is to spend time with someone who has the same ambitions and interests as you do. And to be a true friend when someone needs it the most. Sometimes you can save someone’s life, just by simply listening. Building a true relationship with another human on a inter personal level can develop a deep sense of purpose and comfort of beginning to trust someone. I feel that no matter what kind of companionship, whether it’s romantic or family or close friendship, taking the time to keep those relationships strong is crucial to maintaining a support group in recovery. The closer I become with the positive people in my life, the more I continue to feel reassured that I can overcome anything. Keep your circle close to you no matter what’s going on and being humble enough to ask for help even if you’re a little toughed up with ego. 

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

So, I’ve been noticing that it’s rare to find anyone who sees the beauty of being alive anymore. Every one looks at and talks about the negative. Ever since I started truly looking at why I am blessed and at the good things in life, I stopped noticing the ugly negativity. I haven’t actually had a bad day in months. I look at the silver lining of everything. Even in the darkest of situations, there is light. You just sometimes have to make the effort to find it. And let me tell you what, being in recovery, that makes a hell of a difference. When is the last time you stopped to smell a flower? Or gave one of your pets some quality time? Those are things I go out of my way to do to help remind me of the little things. Life is beautiful. You just have to look at the beauty. 

Good night all of you beautiful souls

I hope you all had a wonderful day. Today I attempted to take down the demon some of us refer to as spring cleaning. I have to say, I don’t know how everyone has been doing this for so long. Golly I don’t enjoy this. Lol. Along my efforts, I found a book all about wellness and maintaining health and treating stress related illnesses. I have a feeling there’s some handy tips in here. I’ll post what I learn in the near future.